It might be a fact that I'm one of a million from those who think optimism is nothing but fucken insanity in our modern world. A dickhead friend of mine told me once "dude, be optimistic!". Well honestly I wished that I had a stick in my hand that I can beat the shit out of him, but lucky him, I had none. I was, in a level of my life, quite optimistic, that was long time ago, when I was just a 10 years old naive boy, thinking that tomorrow is a better day. Well, optimism made me no favors, my family collapsed, my father died, I have a heart condition that whenever I talk about it to my doctor, his mouth says "it will be OK", but his face say "fuck dude, your are screwed". I'm a man with mental issues, psychological shit that settled with time and I can't cure. I'm depressed 90% of the time, but hey, its life.
Let me avoid personal optimism, and talk about global optimism. Tell the kids in Africa to be optimistic, they will eat you alive. The world is a fucken war zone, millions are being killed for no reason, bush is still president, and the entire world economy is collapsing. How can someone be optimistic in this life, how can he wake up in the early morning and think "yes, this will be an amazing morning". I hate, yes I said it, I fucken hate optimistic people, because they are not realistic, they are living in virtual reality where there is no harm. There is no one without a monkey on his shoulder, but to pretend there is no trouble is running away from reality. Hence, fuck optimism, I would rather be cranky all the time but fighting my own dilemmas rather than hiding behind a big fucken smile with the word "happy "printed on my forehead.
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